this is the 4th blog that i write.. and i write in with a moody and sad feeling.. i feel empty.. feel hopeless.. this feeling, comes back to me again..
Today, loupo said something that really hurt really hurt my heart inside deeply.. keep on scolding me bad words and she said i am not important to her.. when i hear it.. my tears......... really going down.. i really dont want to argue with loupo, but inside her mind i always like to find trouble with her.. i am trying to controling her.. but i can swear to god, i really din mean to be like this.. i am not controling her to go have some tea's with her friends, but is it hard just to tell me where you are? i just wanna make sure that you are ok.. loupo tell me that she forget.. but in my heart.. is not once or twice, but a lot of times already.. just write a short message telling me where you are is it that hard ? T.T I tried to tolerate, talking to loupo with a slow toned voice, but she keep shouting at me saying i am very annoying,ask me to shut the fuck up, loupo, am i really annoying to you ? T.T I just dont understand, it make me really sad.. when i dint find you last time, or make late calls to you, you definitely will scold me saying that i dont care about you , but now , hubby try my best to be ur perfect hubby, sharing my love , sharing my care to you, and you say i am annoying ? loupo, i really confuse.. i do love you so much ! God ! please guide me.. i just hope i and loupo can have a simple ,happy ,sweet life.. >.<.
i am not complaining anything or not satisfied about you.. for me, you are the best loupo.. and i am grateful to god can give me such a beatiful wife.. but you always said that i am complaining about you are not good enough to me.. haih.. enough la.. stop writing here.. there is too much things to say.. dont know how to tell.. just keep inside my heart.. and smile always =) be the normal me.. Mr. naughty kit.. xD
i really love u loupo , really i do ... today is our 9th month anniversary.. i love u.. mwaks.. hope we have no problems anymore in the future.. xD SMILE ................
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