heart Crying

I just dont understand why ? why ? i have tried the best .. tried hard.. tried so many things to make u feel happy.. but why.. once and once u hurt me.. no mood writing.. stop here.. drunk myself 1st ~!

Wish..

Hmm.. something happen yesterday that really hurt my heart... my heart is bleeding seriously.. but what i can do ? i am selfish ? i am too controlling ? i am not good enough ? i am a GANGSTER ? I never think about ur feelings ? huh ? funny rite.. Although people say i am gangster .. but for the people who know me.. am i a person who like to simply whack people.. bang people upside down ? i am sure every MAN in this world who say his women being hug by other man will do the same thing that i do yesterday.. this feeling fuck up man.. my wife saying that i am too controlling her.. she feels very unhappy with my attitude.. hmmm.. i have no comment.. but seriously in my heart.. what i do is only for her own good.. she will know it someday... only the one who love u and care u the most will control you.. !! she should not treat me like this.. in my heart .. i ask myself.. WHY ? WHY ? WHY ? why when we fight you must say that you wanna break up with me .. why i always tolerate with you ? why ? am i wrong for caring u too much ? i never say break up why must she say break up.. seriously yesterday i feel wanna give up this relationship with her.. but i cant.. Yong chui yee, is the most important women person in my life besides my mother.. how can i life without her.. if god give me 3 wishes, i will just only make one wish.. just happily go through my life with you... thats all.. i dont like to write actually.. i prefer you to ask.. but never mind .. loupo, just wanna tell you that nothing is more important than you.. i love u .. sweetheart =(

hahaha xD

my loupo angry me ady for long time din update my blog.. now update ady ar.. actually i am very happy with my loupo now.. coz she is living with me now,accompany me everyday.. i love her muchie .. very happy seeing her face when shopping yerterday.. like a little baby.. haha xD mwaks...

at last... wishing my honey can faster find a job... ^^

Down

this is the 4th blog that i write.. and i write in with a moody and sad feeling.. i feel empty.. feel hopeless.. this feeling, comes back to me again..

Today, loupo said something that really hurt really hurt my heart inside deeply.. keep on scolding me bad words and she said i am not important to her.. when i hear it.. my tears......... really going down.. i really dont want to argue with loupo, but inside her mind i always like to find trouble with her.. i am trying to controling her.. but i can swear to god, i really din mean to be like this.. i am not controling her to go have some tea's with her friends, but is it hard just to tell me where you are? i just wanna make sure that you are ok.. loupo tell me that she forget.. but in my heart.. is not once or twice, but a lot of times already.. just write a short message telling me where you are is it that hard ? T.T I tried to tolerate, talking to loupo with a slow toned voice, but she keep shouting at me saying i am very annoying,ask me to shut the fuck up, loupo, am i really annoying to you ? T.T I just dont understand, it make me really sad.. when i dint find you last time, or make late calls to you, you definitely will scold me saying that i dont care about you , but now , hubby try my best to be ur perfect hubby, sharing my love , sharing my care to you, and you say i am annoying ? loupo, i really confuse.. i do love you so much ! God ! please guide me.. i just hope i and loupo can have a simple ,happy ,sweet life.. >.<.
i am not complaining anything or not satisfied about you.. for me, you are the best loupo.. and i am grateful to god can give me such a beatiful wife.. but you always said that i am complaining about you are not good enough to me.. haih.. enough la.. stop writing here.. there is too much things to say.. dont know how to tell.. just keep inside my heart.. and smile always =) be the normal me.. Mr. naughty kit.. xD

i really love u loupo , really i do ... today is our 9th month anniversary.. i love u.. mwaks.. hope we have no problems anymore in the future.. xD SMILE ................

T.T

I really hate this Feeling ! REally Fucking Hate it !! wHY , Why MY EmotionS Always Disturb By This feelings.. haih.. From today onwards i wont show any unhappy Face.. i will pretend to be happy always =) Cheers To The beer !! hahahahahahahahaah ! really there is a rock on my chest.. hard to breath..

hmm

Hmmm, just dont know where to start.. hmm, sometimes i feel that i'm quite selfish, dont know why i would say myself like that, i really wanted my wife to accompany me everyday, no matter where am i , what i do, i always like her be at my side.. its a very happy feeling. =) God knows that i and my wife are sweet, God knows that i love her more than anythings else in this world.. some people ask before, my wife sometimes treats me bad, why i still can stand her attitude.. well, the answer was easy, she is the best thing that i got in my life thats why i need to appreciate,i love her more than words.. but i know, she is bored here.. My Working place.. ><. i dont want to make her unhappy, so i let her go have tea's with her friends.. she was happy with her friends. this is the fact.. i can feel it.. no hard feelings ya wifey, hubby just tell what i feel.. and i know when you are with me you are super duper happy too rite ? =) maybe i am a person who dont like to show what i think.. sometimes i really dont want her to go, but i tell myself, i cant be so selfish rite, my wife is so bored here..Oh, god i wish that the person always go out play and accompany her is Me. not her friends T.T.. sometimes feel moody too.. wish i could hug my wifey rite now..

Just wanna tell you baby, i swear to god , i never think of argueing with you.. i swear.. hmmm.. maybe since you mix with them, i feel different, its not jealousy.. feel like you are so close to them although you knows them for a short period of time.. not hubby dont like you sms-ing all the time.. but when you are with me.. i hope you just focus on hubby o. =)my heart was hurt once when you lie and hide thing s from me, but now, i have recovered it with your love.. i trust you wifey.. =) maybe sometimes hubby is wrong on somethings, if you cant tell me on mouth, wish you can straight sms me kay? and forgive hubby if hubby do anything wrong o.. sory baby. T.T


just wanna let you know baby.. i will and i must marry you, and i will make a better life for you in the future.. remember our dreams ya.. hehe=) i love you forever sweetheart.. 白头到老.. mwaks mwaks mwaks mwaks mwaks mwaks mwaks...